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Sen benim gün geri kalanı mutlu olmak istiyorum kiminle adamsın. Sen hayatımın aşkısın.
Tek ihtiyacım, birazcık sen!
Sen ve ben... Birlikte dünyayı değiştireceğiz.


I know you got hurted. She broke your heart… I know exactly how you feel. You're afraid that this will happen again to you. But I will never hurt you. For this I love you too much, honey.

But as long as this will determine our future, you will break my heart, too. That's not fair. Not for you. Not for me. And especially not for our lives and our love. I know it’s hard for you. But I love you and I miss you so much.

Open your heart to me! Let me show you that love doesn't always hurt you. Let me show you how much I love you. Trust me! Just once! Then you will see how happy we will be together.

You have a lot of love inside you - you just have to let them out. You just have to open your heart to me, honey!!!

May I see your green point on skype again? :-) (Or can you unblock me?) I'd love to write you. But you? I know you hesitate. But try it. Follow your heart and your dreams! I love you, Süleyman!!!! And I will never love another one than YOU.


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4.2.17 09:23

Let's be happy together...

I hope one day love will be really the most important to you.
I hope one day I will be the most important to you....

It feels not good when not even the one who loves me wants to be together with me. The loneliness and the silence make me sick. I feel very bad.
I hope you don’t realize what I mean to you when it's too late. I have no energy and I’m really tired and exhausted. I’m not embarrassed about it and I’m also not embarrassed about my feelings and my love for you. But it’s very hard when you have nothing what is worth to live for. It’s like an endless dark night.
Wake up, honey!!! We have only this one life. And I still believe we 2 deserve to be happy together… But the way it is now my life is just a waste of time. And that's a pitty. Because I miss nothing as much as you. I love you, Süleyman!

Life is valuable only for those who have something what is worth to live for. I'm sorry. But I just want to be happy. With you....

02.01.2017 16:53 Uhr

After all the time... and we're both not happy. Because we love each other so much. You're the love of my life and you also love me so much.

I wish you would care for me like you care for the guests in Oman. But you don't dare. But it would be the most wonderful to me. I'm very sad about it.... Because you would make me very happy... I love you and I miss you, Süleyman!

It's not me who's unreachable. It's you! Let's forgive, forget and be happy together!!!! You don't need to be embarrassed or something like this. You just have to give us a chance. What do we have to lose? We only can win...

I really just want to be happy. But for this I need YOU...


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20.1.17 21:10

I love you...

I miss your smile, your voice, your closeness. I miss everything about you. Because I LOVE YOU!!! Only YOU!!! Make us happy, honey!!! It's so easy....

For me there's no next love. I will always love you. Always!!!

22.12.16 02:23

I want to be the reason that makes you happy for the rest of your life!!!!

Do you know how happy a message from you would make me? One message that would make both of us happy. I even would enjoy about a simple "Hello" or "Hi" because the I know I can answer you. When you do you will realize how happy you make me.

I just love you. And I'm not so complicated as you may think.
I need someone who touches me, who smiles at me, who keeps me in his arms and who just loves me like you do. I need YOU!!!

I love you honey!!! Please write me... because it's all I wish. I just want to be happy, honey. With you. Because we love each other... :-) I LOVE YOU!!!!!


04.11.16 20:46 Uhr

Let's be happy and together...
Let's laugh and having fun...
Let's cuddle and enjoy...
Let's know how good our lips are tasting... :-)

But don't let's no longer to be alone and separated!
I love you, honey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


19.10.2016 17:58 Uhr

Süleyman. I love you and I want you. Because you're all I need...

For me you are everything. I don't need much to be happy.

Your smile, to hear your voice and your laugh. That's all I need. YOU!!! I love you, honey. I don't feel good without you. The silence, the tears, the loneliness, the pain in my heart. I miss you so much... I want to be happy - with you. You just have to let me come back to you. Because you made me feel so good always when I'm with you.

I love you and I'd love to show you... I need your closeness because you make me feel so special. Like nobody else can do to me... I love you!!!!!!!!

I would love to laugh again. For you and with you. But I can't without you. Because I miss you so much... Because you're the only one...


12.11.16 09:03

Canim I miss you

29.09.2016 20:32 Uhr

I haven't seen you very long. But I think every moment of you. I miss you so much, honey. We're both not happy. There are nearly no pictures from you. That's not you. No pictures with children or from parties. Only less pictures from guests. And on these pictures I miss your beautiful smile. And your shining eyes. You're not happy. And I'm also not happy.
I want to be happy with you. I believe when I could be back in your arms you would forget everything and you would be happy, too. Like me. And if not I would do everything to make sure you will be happy. Believe me, I would do everything to see you again and to be together with you. Not because I have to. But because it would make me happy. And you... Time heals nothing. Only we can do this. We can make each other happy. Honey I love you so much. I need you to be happy. Only YOU!!!


17.09.2016 17:45 Uhr

Is it so bad to love me? I love you and you love me. That's the only what counts.

I wait and I hope and I pray... Everyday... I'd love to see you again. And to spend some time with you. Doesn't matter when, doesn't matter where. Because it's the only thing that would make me happy. Very happy. Your cute smile would make my eyes shine again. To say/write "I love you" will not hurt you, but it will stop to hurt me. And it will make us happy. Because we love each other. And that's the most important. To be happy... To be with you... To feel love... To see each other smile and have fun...

You're for me the most important. But I seem for you not important enough. Even when I know it's not true. Even when I know how much you love me. It's horrible without you.

I love you but without you I will never smile again. Therefore I miss you too much, honey. I'd love to be happy together with you. Because we both deserve it. I love you, honey. Forever! Even when I will never be happy without you... Because you're the love of my life!!! And I will never love another one. Because nobody loves me the way you love me. And I don't need anybody else than YOU!!! This great feeling to be loved - only you can make me feel so special. I love you, Süleyman!!!


29.08.16 19:18 Uhr

From 20.09.-27.09.2016 I'm in Side-Kumköy. If you want to see me, to meet me and to make me happy... I would love to spend some time with you or spend your free day with you. I think this would be a good opportunity. Because I still believe we belong together. So much like we love each other. And nothing should be separate us. Nothing!!!

When love is really the most important to you and when I'm important to you... Forgive yourself!!! I would love to see you again. I would really enjoy about it. Because I miss you so much!!!! Just a few words... But they would make me happy forever.

For me there is no next love. For me there's just one love - YOU!!! With you I could smile again... because you're the most important in my life... I will always love YOU!!!! And I will never be happy without you... We should be happy!!!


18.08.2016 18:24 Uhr

Do you know how happy you always made me? Be proud about it!!! And make sure I will always be happy! With you... You're the only one who can do this to me.

Do you really can't forgive yourself? You wrote love is the most important... Do you know how happy some words from you would make me? Then I could tell you how good it feels to be your little princess... :-)))

Honey, you're such a lovely and wonderful man and you have such a big heart. You gave me a place in your heart. Please give me a place in your life! We also deserve to be happy. YOU and ME and LOVE!!! But without you I will never be... :-(

We love us since nearly 3 years. And this will never change. Please stop to think about the past, honey. The past is over. Let's enjoy our future together. It's more important than anything else. Because you're the love of my life. The most important in my life. :-)  I miss you so much... I love you, honey!!!!



I don't want to wait longer. I don't want to be alone longer. I want to write you. You just have to turn on skype. Please answer me! When I see you online I will write you. I believe it's better to try everything than to be sad. And I'm sad without you. But I want to be happy. With you, honey. Because I miss you so much but I love you so much more... Everything else I don't care about. All I want is you!!!

I want to be with you again... I don't want to live without you. Because I'm not happy without you. You're the one I love - and who loves me. I want to share and to spend my life with you. Only with you. Every day without you is just a waste of time... Because you make me always happy. And because I love you so much!!!! I love you more than anything!!!! You mean everything to me, Süleyman...
Listen to your heart and you'll make us both happy. :-))) I will always love you, honey...


05.08.2016 21:47 Uhr

Honey. I think the time is right for us. Really right!!!

I would love to cuddle with you... Soon! I'd like to have breakfast with you. I'd love to fall asleep and wake up in your arms. I want to share my life with you. Of course. I love you and I want to grow old with you. Because you make me always smile when I'm with you. And you make me feel so special. I want make you always smile, too. This special smile you only have for me. And I want to know how good your lips are tasting. :-))))

2 like us, 2 in love like us  - we should be together. 'cause we will be happy together. Always and forever!

I love you, honey. And I want to be with you. As often as I can. I want to enjoy every minute together with you...

I finally want to be with you again. Of course. Because I love you so much. I will always love you. Only YOU!!! I need your shining eyes, your wonderful smile, your loving hands and your closeness. All I need is you!!!



01.08.2016 17:35 Uhr

Just write me! Please wait not longer... and I will love to answer you. Of course I know what you feel, honey. Of course I want to enjoy it. And it will make me really happy. Because I love YOU!!!
I want to see again the most beautiful smile in the world. YOURS!!! And of course I want to be with you together again...
I finally want to be happy - with YOU!!!

You're the love of my life, honey. And this will never change. NEVER!!! I love you...


25.07.2016 18:42 Uhr

"Come back. I love you!" Just a few words. So or something like this to read from you - I'd love it. No matter what you write - I'd be very happy. I'd smile from one ear to the other ear. :-)
Honey, I'd love to be together with you again. Then I would have everything I need... YOU!!!
You know I'm sure and you also know how much you mean to me. I will not be alone longer... I'm not happy without you...

You can make me the happiest girl in the world. Just with being with me... Do it!!! ;-) It's just a message, but it would change my whole life. And I would love it.... And you surely too. :-)))))))

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


24.07.2016 21:12 Uhr

Hi honey.
Is it really so impossible for you? I don't believe it...
You know how much it would mean to me. And I know how much you love me. The same as I love you.
We both think love is the most important. So there is no reason to do not. And I would be happy again.

Why I'm doing all this? Because I want to have this smile back. This smile what you find so cute. And because I want to see your smile again. Because I find yours cute, too. And because I want to be happy again. With you...

Honey, I love you. And I miss you so much.


20.07.2016 21:10 Uhr

Are you still thinking you can't or you shouldn't write me?
You're the only one who thinks this. And it's wrong. I think we should be together and happy because I know I will never stop to love you. And you love me. And I miss you so much. And I think you would love it, too.
I wrote very, very much here for you all the time. If you would write once to me I would be very, very happy. Because you're the love of my life... and I'm not happy without you...

Write "hello" or "hi" and I will send you a smile - every day :-)


18.07.2016 20:12 Uhr

When you wouldn't love me then you would not look here what I write. Tehn you had blocked me. But you haven't. I see when you're online. Why do you make it so complicated? Why do you make it so hard? When you would try it, just once, just for me and you then you would realize it's not hard. Because it's all I wish.

I would be delighted to hear again from you. Because you always made me feel very good. I'd love to be with you again. Because I love you... I want to be happy with you. 'cause I'm not without you. I'd love to enjoy your closeness again. 'cause I love to feel it. To feel you...

It's much better to be together than separated. Believe me! Then you can see how happy you make me. And I'm sure you will love it... Let us be together! Let us together enjoy our life... All I want and all I need is YOU!!!!

I love you, honey!


17.07.2016 18:40 Uhr

Hi honey, I made this 2 little videos for you. Just for you... :-)

I know it's not the best but I don't talk often to a camera. But I think you will understand what I want to tell you...

I love you and I miss you very much!!!



14.07.2016 19:41 Uhr

Can I come to you again?
We already know what we feel for each other. We could be so happy together. Let us no longer be separated!!!
You know how happy would make me an answer from you. I finally want to be with you again.
I would love to cuddle with you right now. And to look together with you into the stars. In your arms and with a smile on my lips...

May I come to you again? Nothing would make me happier....May I come to you? To Justiniano?



12.07.2016 08:45 Uhr

Honey please stop to be silent! I'm not happy without you. I will never be happy without you... :-(

I will always love you and I want to be with you again. 'cause you are the only I will ever love... I want you. Nobody else than you... 'cause you make me always smile and happy when I'm with you.

I love you and I miss you so much...



10.07.2016 17:04 Uhr

I want to smile again. Just for you. But I can't. Because I miss you so much...

I want to be again with you... I also want to celebrate with you foam parties. I want to have fun with you. And I want to be happy with you...


08.07.2016 17:24 Uhr

Honey? It's not difficult. It's just a little message. Just some words. Maybe it's really not easy for you . But maybe it's easier for you to write me back. I know... But it doesn't matter to me. I just want to be again with the one I love. I just want to be happy. So I want to try it once again. To write you. When I see you next time on skype in the evening or night. You just need to write me back. Just to answer me. I don't want to be alone longer. I'm not happy without you...
I miss you very much. I want to see your smile again. And you...

I want to feel your closeness again! 'cause it makes me feel so good. To be with you.... <3 <3 <3 I love you, honey!!!!

Please don't block me and please answer me. I just want to know how you are and I just want to be with you again...


06.07.2016 19:28 Uhr

It's not important how do you write or what. It's only important that you write. I enjoy about everything what you write to me. Because I want to be with you again. And I love you. And you make me smile and happy. Only you.
Honey write me and I will always make you happy. Because then I'm happy, too. I don't want to be without you.
Let's enjoy our lives together... I love you!!!!!!!!!! :-))))

You know I always love to hear from you. Don't wait longer! 'cause nothing would make me happier - than  YOU!!!!! The most beautiful smile in the world I have - always when I see you... ;-))))


03.07.2016 10:31Uhr

I miss you so much I don't want to laugh or talk. It's silent but I'm too sad. I finally want to be with you again. I want to be happy again. But I can't without you. Some few words from you would make me the happiest girl in the world...

Let's finally be happy - together. I don't want to spend my life without you... 'cause you're the only one who makes me feel so special. And you're the only one I will ever love.

You look as often what I write here as often as I look what you do and if you're online. Please stop to be silent, honey. I just want to be with the man I love - and who loves me. 'cause I'm not happy without you, honey... I want to make holidays again. In turkey. With you. And I want to smile again - only for you. 'cause I know you love to see it... And I love to smile for you...

Don't make it so complicated!!! I want to see your smile again. I love to hear your voice and to be with you. You're all I need...


01.07.2016 20:35 Uhr

You don't belong to those who like to talk about their feelings. You're better in showing them. I don't know what's going on in your mind. First I thought you are shy. You're not. You started in egypt to touch me and to come closer. And I enjoyed it very much. Then I thought you're afraid. Maybe. You told me when you were drunken (and cute) you will never give your heart again away. But you did. If you were afraid, but you're not afraid. You wrote love is the most important and it doesn't matter the distance or religion. Someone who wants no girlfriend doesn't write such things. Then I thought you didn't dared. Hmm. You think too much time has passed to be together again? You know what? It doesn't matter to me how much time has passed. When you have needed this time then it was worth for me to wait. Every single day. I know how you felt. And I understand when you were afraid. But after all the time has passed - our feelings haven't changed. And they will never change. In 30, 40 or 50 years I will  still say "I love you Süleyman". And I'd love to be with you then. You're the love of my life, honey. And all I need to be happy is you. So if you really don't dare. Don't worry! There's no reason why you shouldn't dare. You will make me really happy. And that's the best reason why you should... :-))))))
It's never too late to be happy. NEVER!!!! And when it makes me happy was it worth to wait for... and everything else is not important. Only LOVE. Let's be finally together again! 'cause it was the best time of my life. With you...
Everyday I hope and wait to hear from you. Wake up honey! I will never be happy without you...


29.06.2016 14:22 Uhr

I wrote you but I don't know if my message reached you. But I think if you want to reach me you know how you can do. And you know how much it would mean to me.

Always when I wrote you I just wanted to make me happy. 'cause I'm not without you. I want a nice and normal life with a man who loves me. I'm afraid. To never be happy in my life... Love never stops. Not for me. But you can't show it. That's a pity. 'cause it's my life... and I love you!!!! I know you can't speak about your feelings. But it would make me happy. So please try. For me. For love. All I feel is to miss you... I wish I would be for you so important like you are to me. Then it doesn't matter to you anything else. Then I would be the most important to you. But I'm not...


27.06.2016 16:24 Uhr

I don't want to spend my whole life and asking myself what would has been when I had dared... So I will make one last try. When I see you next time online on skype I will write you and hope you will answer me and make me smile again. I don't want to live without you. Because I'm not happy without you. You're the love of my life. Without you I will never be happy. I want to show you my love will never hurt you. I want to make you happy. Because then I'm also happy.
So I hope you will enjoy about it and answer me. Then I could be  with you again soon. Because I need nothing else than... YOU!!!! I LOVE YOU.



24.06.2016 06:34 Uhr

Honey. Please stop to torture yourself. It's not good for you. And not for me. And it's wrong and unnecessary. We will never stop to miss each other.

I love you. More than anything else. And you're the only one I want to be with... Enjoy it! And forget everything else. It's just you and me. Don't be afraid. You can't do anything wrong. The only wrong is to be separated...

Let's be finally be happy together. I want to be in your arms again. 'cause it's all I need to be happy. Believe me!

I can't be happy without you. NEVER!!! The days I spent with you were the best of my life. I want a lot of more of them. I want to spend the rest of my life with YOU!!!!!!



22.06.2016 17:57 Uhr

I wanted you more than 2 years ago, I want you today and I still want you in 50 years. This will never change. Never!!! Why don't you looking forward? Why don't you enjoy it?
I think it's time for us to become happy together. After all we still love us. That's something very special. But I can't do anything. Honey it's up to you. Just this little message.... You're often on skype in the last days. And I don't know if you wait me to write you. Or not. I really don't know. So you can just write me. Then I would be sure you will enjoy my answer.
The prince may capture the little princess. :-)))))))) Like you captured my heart. It's really easy.
Let love be the most important. Let's be happy together. You're all I need for this.

I have so much more to tell you.
But most of all I want to find out how good your lips are tasting. How good it feels to be yours. And how good it feels to cuddle with you...

Honey I love you. So let me show it to you...


21.06.2016 18:01 Uhr

Can I have a little "Hello" or "Hi" from you?
This little word would change my whole world. I would be so happy.
I don't dare to write you. 'cause I don't know if it's OK for you. But you know I will enjoy it very much if you write me. You can be sure.
So I wait for you to write me. And I would love to answer you.

I love you. You are everything to me... and this I want to tell the man I love as often as I can. :-))))

I want to be with you again!


20.06.2016 18:09 Uhr

I don't know if you wait for me to write you. And I wait for you to write me. I'd love to but I don't know if you want. All I need is to know. There are so much possibilities. Unblock me or leave me a note on your profile. Or you just write. It doesn't matter to me who makes the first step. The main thing is someone does...
I don't want to fight for you anymore. I want to be no longer alone. I just want to be with you again. 'cause you make me always smile. 'cause I'm not happy without you.
I love you!
Your little princess... :-)


17.06.2016 06:27 Uhr

Honey. Don't feel embarrassed. Don't feel bad. Just follow your heart!

I will not write you because I don't know if it's OK for you right now. I would love to,  but I'm unsure. And I don't want to be blocked again. :-) So I need this one message from you. Only one. To be sure. Then I could write you a lot of mails back. And everyone is just for you. You love me, so you can do it. Because this message will make me really really happy, honey. You can be sure. :-))))) You can reach me all day and night...
All I need is your hands on me again, your voice in my ears and your eyes on me. And to know how your lips are tasting. :-) All I need is YOU and to be with you!!! 'cause you make me always smile and happy...     I LOVE YOU!!!!



16.06.2016 23:25 Uhr

more than all the money in the world...
more than all travels I've ever made...
more than anything else...
         ....would mean a message from you to me.
Because the best place for me is still in your arms.
'cause you're everything to me. And we belong together.



13.06.2016 16:23 Uhr

"Wake up and go after your dream", "love is the most important"... You wrote it but you didn't live it. It's easier for you to see I'm not OK than to say "I love you". Nobody can be so much embarrassed to let the person you love go. You can be embarrassed and think you're not good for me all your life - but it will never make you happy. And me not, too. Why don't you stand up and follow your heart? Why don't you make me happy?

It makes me sad what must have happened to you. You're a wonderful man. You don't deserve this. We both don't deserve this stands between us. That would be such a pity.
I'm not angry or mad. But I'm sad without you. I miss you every second. I would never hurt you. Therefore I love you too much.

I want to spend my life with you. Forever. Because I love you... And because you make me smile everytime I'm with you... :-)))) I'd rather be with you happy sometime than forever unhappy. But you don't realize... For me there's only one love in life. Even if I will never be happy without you...



10.06.2016 12:30 Uhr

You're always in my mind.

You're always in my heart.

And I want you in my life.

Because I miss you so much. Because I love you so much. Because without you life is not nice. Because I'm not happy without you.


09.06.206 22:06 Uhr

I'd love to cuddle with you before I fall asleep in your arms right now.
Then I could wake up with you.
Then I could see the man I love at first in the morning.
Then I could see your cute smile at first in the morning.
Then I would be happy... with you!
But I'm not with you. But I would love to. I would really love to... Because I love you!


09.06.2016 19:27Uhr

It doesn't care what has been. Is future not more important than the past? Are we both not the most important? And love? Love is not about being perfect. Love is who makes you smile, with whom you are feeling very well, with whom you want to share everything. With Süleyman.
He wrote religion and distance doesn't matter. And as long as it's written in his profile - I hope. That one day he doesn't care about the past and he follows his heart. 'cause love is the most important - as he wrote. And he's all I want and need.
'cause it's all not worth as long as I'm not happy. He is all what's in my head. Everytime. Everywhere.




This smile I have when I think of you. And I want to make you smile with my smile...
because I love your cute smile
because I love to see your shining eyes
because I love to hear your voice and laugh
because I love to be with you
because I love YOU!!!
Honey, you are the love of my life and I want to be happy with you for the rest of my life.
And now I wait for you. I can't do anything. But you can make me the happiest girl in the world... Your girl!!!
Come on and stop to doubt. You're everything to me.
Let's be happy. Let's be together. 'cause we belong together...



06.06.2016 21:14 Uhr

I know how hard this is for you. But can’t you…? Just a little step? Just once? Just for me? And you? For us? I don't know what has been so bad. I love you more than anything else. Just the way you are.

I love only once. But then for real and forever. That’s the reason why I’m so scared. I can’t give you up. Because I love you. And because you love me. And I don’t want to be alone. No longer. Not without you.

I would give everything to be with you again. But it’s up to you, honey… Let nothing be more important than us!

I'd love to touch your hips again and to talk to you into your ear. Very close to you. And to look in the most beautiful eyes in the world again. Yours. Do you remember? One of the best feelings I ever had...

I think we were long enough separated from each other. And we still feel the same. So I think the time is right for us. To be happy... To enjoy everything together...But I was never so helpless like now... Let's change! 'cause I can't stop loving you...

There are pictures and videos with you. So it's not hard to know where you are. But I know it's useless as long as you are not ready... as long as you can't enjoy to see me... But I hope one day it will change...




05.06.2016 10:30 Uhr

I really don't know where to spend my holidays. 'cause without you everything is useless. Everyday at home I sit for hours and stare at the wall. All I feel is to miss you. You became the most important to me. I want to be with you again. Just with you...

 Do you know how important you are to me?

Do you know how much I miss you?

Do you know how happy you can make me? Just with being close to me?

Believe me. I feel it.

I miss my Süleman. He's the best what could ever happen to me. If he would already realize. Then I could show him... 




03.06.16 11:30 Uhr

If you would realize how unnecessary this is. We already could be so happy together.
I could fall asleep with you and you could wake up with me.
But you prefer to be unhappy. For you. And for me.
Pride? Honor? I don't know. You let your past determine our future. It's a mistake. Maybe the biggest mistake for our lifes. But mistakes can be corrected...
I would love to cuddle with you and to kiss you right now. But I'm not with you...

I found the love of my life. And I'd love to be happy with him. I think you know exactly what I feel. But I don't know why are you doing this. And why we are not togeher.

I love you - more than my own life. But without you I will never be happy. Never. I love you, honey!!!


24.04.2016 04:23 Uhr

If I were you and I would know there's a girl I love very much and this girl loves me the same and she's sad because she misses me - believe me I would do everything to make sure she's fine. Because it's more worth to make her smile than to care for the past. I would try to call her or to write her. And I would not care about what has been. Because she loves you and you love her. Only that's important. You wrote it, too. So make it happen! Make her happy! Because true love - you will find just once in your life.
Don't be a fool! Don't let her go. She would do everything for you. And she will always love you... And she will never be happy without you...
You don't need to do something big or buy presents for her. The biggest for her you can't buy with money. The biggest for her is to spend as much time as possible with you...



You're a proud man. But you would be more proud if you have the girl you love beside you. And you are the reason for her smile...

Wake up with you, look at you, smile and say “good morning honey”. Having breakfast with you. Counting the days when I’m with you again. These are just small things. But for me they would be very valuable.

You’re different than all the others. But that’s exactly the reason why I love you so much. You make me smile even I’m not with you at the moment. Just imagine how happy you would make me when I’m with you…







I don't know when I laughed or smiled for the last time. But I know how much I miss you. And I also know with you I never had to be sad again. With you I would smile... With you I would be happy... Because I love you. And you love me.

Honey... Make me happy! Make me smile again! It's very easy... I miss you...


When people say "time heals" - they never felt true love. Time heals nothing. Only love can do... Because only love makes people happy. Nothing else.


The best thing you can do to me - is just to make me happy. With your cute smile, your voice, your shining eyes - just with you, honey. You're all I need to be very happy. With you I want to grow old until we get wrinkles. And when we both have grey hair we will still love each other.

I love you Süleyman....


I just want to have THIS feeling for the rest of my life... with you...

I love you!





It hurts me so much too see like everyone is in love. They're kissing. They're so happy. I hate to see it. I will never hear "I love you", "I need you" or "I want a kiss from you, right now". I will never know how good it feels to be loved. It hurts a lot. Every day. So much I wish I was never born. I'm sorry about this. It is really easy to make me smile again. But it will never happen... 'cause I'm... I don't know what's wrong with me. And it doesn't matter. I cry because I miss him so much... and I'm not able to stop it. But he can. With his love....

I know I'm no beauty and I never wanted to be. But I always thought a good heart is enough to be loved. And the way I'm I would be good. Is it so hard to forgive? To forget? Is it not more worth to make people happy than to think about the mistakes? I just want to be happy and laugh again... but now for me it's normal to be sad and to cry. Because I love...



I love to dream about you and me. Everytime when I close my eyes... I'm close to you. I lean my head on your shoulder. I enjoy your touches and I love to touch you. We don't speak. We just cuddle. And we enjoy to be together. I feel your closeness, your warmth and you. But when I open my eyes - you're not there. I hope so much that this will change soon.... I miss you so much!!! I love you!!!


13.03.2016 09:07

Nobody can change what happened. But we can wake up every day and make a new beginning....

I'd like to forget all this and want to smile again. But I can't without you. I love you!!!


10.03.2016 10:23 Uhr:

I know nobody will read this because nobody knows about this page. But here I can explain my inner feelings.


26.01.2016 11:00 Uhr

Why am I doing all this? Because I love you. And because I want that I'm fine again. I don't want to spend my life without you. I miss you so much.

I'd like to come back to you and to be with you. As often as I can. Because I feel so comfortable with you. And because I'm unhappy without you. Really unhappy. Nothing is more important than love. Really nothing. For me it's the most important to laugh again. Yes, I'm sensitive. But my heart beats just for you.

I love you... My love for you is real and forever. Therefore I'm so afraid. To be unhappy and alone for the rest of my life. Even though you love me. I'm serious with you. Very seriously.

I don't want someone else. I only want you. Because it's you. The one who felt in love with me. With you I want to laugh, love and live. And grow old.

Maybe you think I'm crazy. No. I'm just in love. I only follow my dream... I'd like to make it true - with you, honey. emotion I know I often write the same. But this is the only thing I feel.

Bilinmeyen bir ülkeye yolculuktur aşk. Birlikte seyahat edelim... Seni seviyorum Süleyman!!!

Please remember how nice it was between us.When we talked. I enjoyed your closeness and I miss it. You mixed Jack Daniels for me. We are so cute together. I have so much to tell you from me. I want to sit with you at the beach and enjoy every moment. The best place for me is in your arms. Believe me. I know how good it feels. Darling I love you. Give me a little place in your life. Only a little. You will not regret it. NEVER! And I want to know how good your lips are tasting... emotion




20.01.2016 10:21 Uhr

why are you not able to change your opinion?


Süleyman I miss you!!! ;-(


06.01.2016 10:11 Uhr

We have the best conditions for love. We both love each other. So why we are not together? Because of a mistake? A reaction? Or whatever? Don't care about the past. How long shall I be unhappy? I can't stand this situation not longer... Don't be a fool. Don't let me go. Cause someone like you and me we will never find again...


Even if you think I'm complete crazy...  I still want you because I still love you. I want to spend my life with you. Because you can make me happy. You let me smile and laugh. And you're the right one for me. I feel it. If you would realize... I miss you so much.

Nobody has to say "sorry", you just have to tell me "come back" or "I miss you" or something like that. And I will do.

Don't care for the past. I want a future with you...


01.01.2016 02:23 Uhr

Canim. I wish you a happy new year. You're my little world. You're more important to me than anything else. I want to grow old with you, until we're wrinkled but still happy together.

Yes, of course, I look what you're posting. Because I want to see how you are doing. I dream of you, I think of you. I love you more than anything. Let's make our dream come true - together. It's better than a dream that never comes true. I'm sad without you.

I'd like to spend 2016 with you - and the rest of my life. As often as I can. Because it is the only way to become happy for me.

Your closeness is the biggest for me. This feels soooo good to me.  I need it. I need YOU! Because nobody smiles so cute like you. And nobody loves me the way you love me. Real. I love you! 


30.12.2015 18:13 Uhr

What I love the most about you? Everything. Even if you’re not perfect. For me you are.

We are similar. We feel the same. And we’re both so cute when we are together. I feel so good when I’m close to you and you were happy, too. I saw you. Your eyes were shining. I enjoyed every time you touched me and you enjoyed it, too. I love you for showing feelings. And for loving me just the way I am. You’re the only one…

It was right to fell in love with you because it feels good. And it was right that you fell in love with me. Because you love me really. You wouldn’t do all this if you wouldn’t love me. But it would be wrong when we wouldn’t be happy together. We belong together. We love us. A lot.

My love for you is huge. You make me smile and very happy. And I will do everything to make you happy. Because you deserve it. Maybe you are sometimes the same difficult than me. But together we were a real cute couple. With a lot of love for each other. And that’s the most important. That we both are happy – together.

You’re proud. I know. But please don’t be too proud for giving us a chance. You could be real proud if you do. Then you will realize that it is the only right decision. You’re more important to me than anything else. And all you have to do is to love me really. But that you are doing already. So give me a chance – give us a chance. And I will give you a reason that you can be proud the rest of your life. Me!!! ;-)
29.9.16 20:32

seni seviyorum ve seni özlüyorum

What do you have to lose? The only thing you risk is to be happy with me.

You're wrong if you think someday someone else will make me happy.  True love can't be replaced. And you certainly not.

Sometimes I'm difficult. But mostly I'm just like you know me. It's just about all these feelings. It's  emotional chaos.


20.12.2015 17:06 Uhr

You don't care - but you look?

You don't want me - but you love me?

I cry. And you behave as it wouldn't matter to you. You don't feel better than me, right?
You should be proud about me and my love. 
You are my first real love - and the last one. It's my destiny - and I have to live with.
Do you remember when you told me you have to protect yourself? Now I know exactly what you mean. But I would risk it with YOU... Because now I know the reason for all this. And because it can't get worse than this situation. Nobody can replace you. NOBODY!
Çok şeye ihtiyacım yok benim. Kalbinde küçük bir yer yeter.
I’m one of these less girls believing in real love and growing old with one person. I still believe true love is just for one and forever. Some people would say it’s crazy, I say it’s just honest.
I won’t do it again with someone else because the fear is too big that it happens again. And because I love YOU. Nobody else. If this means I have to live a lonely life because you don’t want me because you are still afraid of getting hurt than I can’t change. But I’d like to change it – together with you. We’re both afraid but we’re both love us.

07:12.15 06:36 Uhr
All I want is to become happy... I love you!

02.12.2015 16:20 Uhr

I want to bury the past finally. I miss him so much.

I want to sit on the beach with him, to count the stars with him, to tell him from me, to smooch with him, to kiss him... I need his  closeness. I need to feel him. It's so cold without him.

I want that we both are very happy. But at the moment I'm not. And I feel that he's not, too.


26.11.2015 02:23 Uhr

I’m thinking every day of you. At night I can’t  sleep – because I’m still thinking of you.

Sorry for the next few words. I don’t mean bad. But he’s a fool if he still thinks that he made a mistake or something else. My cute fool. Everybody makes mistakes. Me too. But no mistake is so bad that we shouldn’t enjoy our love.

I want to live between Germany and Turkey. My work is here. But my love is there. I want to spend all my free time with him. It seems that he thinks as much as me like I think at him.

Even if I sometimes blamed myself or did something embarrassing. Our love is more important than a stupid mistake. We’re only humans. But we love us. And we’re not happy without the other one. Nobody can change the past. But we can enjoy a nice future – together.

He should finally stop to think bad about himself. It’s not right. He’s a wonderful man. Maybe sometimes he tries to be too perfect. He doesn’t need to. To me he’s perfect just the way he is.

If he realizes and believes this, than we can be happy for the rest of our lives.

He is the love of my life. And this will never change… Süleyman I love you!!!



16.11.2015 05:30 Uhr

I'd like to sit with you on the beach, I want to tell you so much from me, I want to smooch with you, I want to laugh with you, I want to touch your hips when I kiss you, I want to look into your eyes, I want to caress through your hair, I want... all these wonderful things you do, when you're in love.

It's terrible without you!

I read, I can translate and I feel... how much you love me.

Between us – it’s not just love. It’s the real BIG LOVE.

What shall I do? I can’t life without you. I miss you always. I feel that we belong together – it’s fate I think. It seems that you need me the same like I need you.

To a special person one say “I need you”, “take care of yourself” and “you’re important to me”. But no one has ever told me that. I never was something special and I never wanted to be. I just wanted to wait for the right one. And that’s Süleyman.

I believe that I can make you really happy. Because I’m happy if you are…

With so much love between us we should look forward – we don’t need to look back. It’s not important what has been, it’s just important what comes.

I miss your smile because it let me smile, your eyes because they shine when they see me, your hands because I love when they touch me, your voice because then I know you’re close to me, your lips because I want to kiss you. I miss everything about you because I love everything about you.

You can say a hundred times to me that I’m special. I wouldn’t believe. But if you DO something special for me – just one time – I would believe for the rest of my life. Because words are easily spoken – but actions not.

How I would feel if you would do something special for me? Like a princess – your little princess.

I have friends who are together with turkish, kurdish and brasilian partners. They are all so happy. For me it’s not important from where you are. Only who you are. The one who loves me…



I'm not happy without you... I love to do this here. To write my thoughts about you. But soon I don't have any power any more. It's hard to live without you.

I would love to see you again. Doesn't matter when or where.  I miss you.

Why I fell in love with you? Because you make me feel so good when I'm with you. Believe me, you are wonderful. In my eyes you are perfect. Just the way you are. I think it's the same reason why you fell in love with me... And I don't think I'm perfect, too. Even if you see it differently. Just as it feels we belong together.

It's really easy to send me a message. Only a few words. Believe me.

I will always love you. I hope to get an Happy-End. For both of us. You're everything to me. I'd like to be your little star which is always shining for you...


Seni özlüyorum...

I promise by my mother's life that I will never hurt you. (And she is the only person I have yet.) Trust me! I've never lied or cheated anyone. And I will never do. Never!

If you let the past determine you now, you will lose what you can have in the present and the future. A life with me... And a girl which loves you very much. Since more than 2 years... A girl that would travel around the world for you... Because YOU make her smile.

"I miss you. When will you come back." These few words would make me real happy.

Honey, I love you!


26.10.2015 17:45 Uhr

Even if you believe least you are the one I need most.

Home is where heart is...

I travelled to more than 20 countries and I know that not everyone can do this. But I always worked for it. But it's not important if you are not happy. It's not important if you have much money or whether you are successful. It's only important to know that there is someone who loves you. No matter where in the world. Because love is the most important. And to be needed. To know that someone is happy because he sees me.

Formerly I was somebody noticed from nobody. Except ONE. Then I hoped to be something special to him. For a few days I felt so. It was great. I enjoyed his closeness.

And now? I'm nothing special. I'm still someone whom no one noticed.

But this feeling is what life is worth to live for. Nothing else. No amount of money can replace it.

And I still dream. Of YOU... I miss you.

How does it feel? To be needed? To be loved? To be happy? I don't know... But I'd like to know....


23.10.2015 23:02 Uhr

I can't imagine that you don't care how I feel. It was not me who hurted you. NOT ME. Now I pay a high price.

It's me. The one you love. You wrote I'm unreachable like the stars. No. I'm not. I'm only one message away from you... Just one message.

I still love you and I miss you.

But I can't stand it. You are all I want. Still. I can't be angry with you.  But I want to stop the pain in my heart...


18.10.2015 23:02 Uhr

Why I am the way I am? I'm scared. Just scared. And I don't know how to deal with all the emotions. That's all...

Some people might think I'm not normal. But only I know what I feel.

We did not dispute... Nothing stands between us (in my opinion).

Some people may say "Look for another one". I can't do that. I could have 3 dates the day when I was downtown Side on my holidays. But I didn't and I couldn't.

Don't let the past determine your future. Don't let destroy our love because of what someone else did to you. Please.

I know that you're a very loving man, otherwise I would not had fallen in love with you. I need you! I miss everything about you. Your closeness, your smile, your laugh... Everything! I wait every day for a message... unbelievable, or? I want to be with you together, I have so much to tell you from me and all the things to enjoy being with you.

I don't want to cry anymore. I want to smile because I'm happy for you. I would be so proud to be the girl on your side.

You're everything to me. But without you, everything is nothing.


16.10.2015 15:07

When I was younger I thought I only have to wait until the right one comes... He came. But the case he loves me but He doesn’t want me – that’s not explainable in my little world. I only wanted his heart to care for it and to love him. Now I say the same like he said: “Nobody gets my heart”. But this way I have no chance for a normal life. No baby, no own little family, no love. But I love children...

He thought time will heal me. No. I love him since more than 2 years and I will do it always. I can’t change.

Nobody knows how I really feel. I feel myself ugly, unattractive and unloved. Maybe it’s not right. But how should I feel? The one who loves me doesn’t want to be together with me. Maybe someone like me can nobody love. I wish he would say “sorry, come back, I miss you too”. But maybe I’m not worth.

I hate the days with all the bad thoughts. I was always kindly and had joy. But it’s nothing left. I lost everything. My smile, my joy and maybe my love. I only want the pain ends. But it doesn’t. It will never end. I fall asleep with tears in my eyes and I try all the time nobody notices how I really feel. Because they can’t help me. I spend all my time alone. I don’t want to talk to anybody.

I still love you but I can’t understand all this. Everybody says love is something wonderful. It isn’t. I miss you. Just you. I want no explanation but I want my smile back. But I can do nothing for you to change your mind... or maybe? Just trust me. Only ONCE.

If I still have dreams or wishes? Only one wish... finally to enjoy our love.


14.10.2015 23:02

Benim canim

Seni özlüyorum!

Her gün. Her saat. Her dakika. Hep.

Seni seviyorum!

If I knew why are you so hard on you and me... If I could I would change it. Immediately. Even though you might not understand but I love you anyway. Life is not always easy. But I would do anything that you change your mind. Because I’m not happy without you. Without you I’m like a flower without water. I have no joy anymore. I can look forward to nothing. Not even the next holidays.

If I love, then correctly and only once. But forever. I believe in it. We’re so cute together.

I know you only want to protect yourself. But with a little bit of courage and trust you would notice that you don’t need to protect you from me.

I only smile when I think of you. Because of all these little memories. Do you remember? You wanted to dance but I was too shy this evening. Or when you sang for me? Or when you put your arms around me? I need more of you…

I would really enjoy if you would write me “would you like to come back to me”. I love you. Just you. You can be sure - I promise.

I don't care the past - I want a future - with you.


6.11.15 17:00

I still love you...

I don’t know what it’s really about. You know that I’m a normal girl. But desperation sometimes let me do stupid things.

I’m not so strong like it seems. I’m very sensitive and full of feelings. Sometimes you meet people where you are dare to do anything. You are one of it. I know what it means – through this distance. But I’m sure it will work. Like it works by the others. We would not be the only.

I don’t know why I always get an advice where you are. Fate or chance or whatever? But don't worry, it’s no use like this. One year ago you enjoyed to see me. Do you remember? Maybe you are afraid that I don’t come back at some point… I believe in this love. Would I do all this otherwise?

I’m only desperate and sad of all of this. Time heals nothing. Not for me.

“Mutlu olmak, Mükemmel olmaktan daha önemlidir.” You are right.

I’m not unreachable. You make me so. Why? I’m nothing special. I only love you. Just you. Why are you pushing me away?  

You met me and you felt in love for me. And I only want someone who loves me really. Like you do. Therefore I believe in us.

But only you can make this step. Only a message from you. For me. I don’t write you because I don’t want that you send me a message again which is not true.

I would like to have a normal life again. With living, smiling, working, laughing, loving and hopefully YOU. That’s all.

If a fairy would give me 3 wishes for free I would say “Süleyman, Süleyman and Süleyman.” I need nothing else. With a few words I would say “we didn’t had a perfect start, but we can have a lucky future.” I’m serious. No more tears, no more pain. We have suffered enough...

I miss you a lot... Süleyman! I don't know how to stand. emotion


28.09.2015 15:24 Uhr

I should know how to feel butterflies in the stomach...

I should know how to taste your lips...

I should know how good it feels to be loved...

I should see your eyes shining if they see me...

But at the moment I only know how much it hurts to miss you...


26.09.2015 03:22 Uhr

My colleagues say, I would barely speak anymore. Maybe. I'm not OK. My last smile was a long time ago. I feel worse every week. They would like to help me. But they don't know the reason. And they can't help me. This only one can...

"You're cute. You're a good girl." It seems men don't like cute and good girls. Crazy, or? If this story were not so bad I would laugh. Too cute? Do you notice something? There is nobody close to me. Nobody tells me "I love you" or "I need you". You were the first let me feel love - and you are the last one. If you believe someone else could make me feel this again then you are more stupid than me. I'm none of these bitches having every month another boyfriend. I trusted in love. And I always was proud of it. Now it will make me a broken girl. Every day a little bit more...

Why does something wonderful hurt so? Love is not made for me. It's only hurting. Always. And pain and tears...But that's all I really wanted.

I can't turn back the time. But I can forgive. Why can't you the same to me?

I miss you always...


22.09.2015 17:08 Uhr

Why did he fell in love with me? I have nothing to offer... except my heart. But he don't want it. But it's the most valuable thing i have.

My friends in german-turkish relationships say "he will notify if he loves you". Will he? Hope is the only thing I have. But I miss him so much. Süleyman... I love you!!! I'm not embarrassed to tell you this. These are the most beautiful words I have for you...

Süleyman excite every day many people. I can't even fascinate the one... It's like a bad dream...


16.09.2015 19:00 Uhr

I miss my smile. That's not me anymore. There was a time I was always smiling. That was the best about me. And now? Most of the time it's gone. And I don't know how to get back.

I want this fucking life no more. What has it brought to me? Süleyman doesn't talk to me. I'm unhappy. One year ago we enjoyed to see each other. And now? I don't understand. I hate to see all these happy couples and families. That's  not the life I wanted.

I still miss him so much. Is it really not possible to forgive me? I know that's not true what he wrote...




09.09.2015 04:34 Uhr

What he wrote to me yesterday was not nice, but i get an answer from him. I'm not mad or angry. I don't believe it because that's not him. I think he want to make it easier for me but I never could hate him.

Why didn’t he answers me when i wrote him in january or march? I only wanted an answer. Nothing else.

He could have saved me from suffering at the beginning of this year. But he had just ignored me.

And if he really don’t want me he had said it much earlier, not now. For this nobody needs 8 months...

Do he believe his own lies?

Maybe I’m stupid. But I was always honest. In my opinion he still loves me but he is afraid of getting hurt. Nobody can promise him that it won’t happen… I only can promise that I will never do. When he thinks this is the solution for a lifetime then I ask me who is the stupid one?


If I would do it again? Only with him. Because I still love him. And I can't change... I would try it with him if he want to. I think it hurted him more than me what he did. If he sometime realize that it was a mistake…It’s never too late. I can’t stop this feelings… So I have to live with. No matter how.

But nobody else will ever touch me or my heart. Maybe it will be a lonely life, but it will not hurt.

Sometimes you lose, sometimes the others win. Life sucks!!!


07.09.2015 15:41 Uhr

Today 2 years ago we met for the first time...

I've noticed you and always felt attracted to you. How much I love you I realized when I was back at home. I always looked for you. And I was very unhappy when I had to leave.

I'd like to be your star. Then I could always shine on you if I can't be with you. 

What I would do if I see you again? At first hug you very tightly.

I think we're really cute together! I miss you!


2.10.15 17:04

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